What do you like most about your writing?
I like that I really don’t care about my writing.
Now that may sound really ridiculous to a lot of people, but hear me out!
I did not start this blog as a way to be famous. In a generation of tiktokers and “social media influencers”, it was never my goal. I started it as a way to just sort through my own ideas. And honestly, it has kind of kept up that mentality for the last 6, almost 7, years.
When I blog, I usually just sit down and type. I don’t care about grammatical things or the appeal to a wide audience or tags and hashtags and all that stuff. I let my thoughts come pouring out, sometimes they are ones that I can’t share with the people around me, ones that I don’t like within myself, ones that I feel ashamed of for having, or ones that I can’t even articulate into verbal words. I might read it over once, click the red lines under words that Grammarly tells me are incorrect in one way or another, and then I just push publish, or schedule. Writing is my best way of communicating. I think it always has been. I love to write. Or type. Whatever.
I love that I can just sit and let it all come out and not worry about what it means or who sees it. No one from my real life has this blog address. I have made amazing friends from the blog, but they only know me from the blog. Which, honestly is probably a more authentic representation of my true self, but nonetheless, those friendships have grown from the over vulnerability (and sometimes stupidity) of what I type. It’s different for those who I know outside of the blog first and then to have to share all of this *waves hand in a circular motion in front of my laptop* with them would be a scary and intimidating thing for me to do.
So what I like most about my writing is just the fact that I do it. I know a lot of people say that their blog is like free therapy for themselves, and I have to agree. Without this space to just get the thoughts out of my head in a way that I can be 100% honest, I’m not sure how I would be able to cope with some things. And also the support of the lovely people that I have grown so close to. I hope you know who you are, and I hope you know that I deeply love you all and thank you for being part of my community and life. You’re the second thing I like most about my writing xoxo