So I didn’t have anything to post today, but I also didn’t not want to post today…
But I guess since I’m on a good posting streak, I didn’t want to break it and also decided that I should probably be honest about some things.
I kind of feel like I’m in a slump lately. Work is fantastic and makes me really happy! I love every day that I’m there. Not all the time, today a student was about half a second away from intentionally breaking my finger, but for the most part, I get to experience some amazing transitions and that’s just so rewarding! I wish I had been a teacher at this school since 2013 when I got my license. Although I do know I needed the experience of the last 8 years to make me into the teacher that I am today and to really love this job.
But in other areas, I’m struggling. I’m holding onto anger and fixating on negative thoughts and feelings a lot. I think being in a good work environment and a safe and stable home environment has led me to a place where now I have to focus on other emotions in my life.
I don’t really feel like I have the energy to write it all out here tonight, or probably in the future, but I am happy that my work benefits will be starting at the end of the month. Once they do, I think I will be seeking out a local therapist to try to help me work through some of these things and get to a better mind space.