Aaron’s word of inspiration this week is united.
I think it’s really hard to feel united with people these days. Maybe it’s just the phase that I’m going through, but the people I used to feel connected and united with are no longer the people that I do.
If you’ve been enjoying this 15 day posting run on NLFF, then you’ll know that I’ve been questioning my faith lately. Maybe not so much my faith, but my place within the Christian community. I used to feel like part of that community and there is a unity in that. But now, I feel like I’m outside of that connection just based on where my own personal beliefs have landed as an adult. Like sure, I still go to church and I still believe and I still read my Bible every day, but the unity with the body of believers is where I am feeling this disconnect.
I don’t believe in the hate or the close-mindedness of the faith community. I don’t enjoy it and I kind of refuse to be part of it. My brother is part of that and his girlfriend as well, but he gets a pass because he is my brother. She does not. But it makes perfect sense that they would be so well suited as a couple because of those shared values.
I firmly believe that if any of their future children come out as gay or trans, they will no longer be welcome in their home. Gay maybe, but trans absolutely not. And I don’t support that AT ALL. I already told my brother if that ever happens this non-existent child will be welcome in my home.
I think this is a really big problem for the Christian community. Jesus taught us to love our neighbour as ourselves. Yet so many have chosen to focus on the hate. I call it hate or closed-mindedness, my brother has decided to call it “conviction”. It has really broken down that level of inclusion that I can feel in the church body. It’s something that I have struggled with a lot. I have almost always fought to keep my faith alive (in my teens, let’s face it, I did not) but that is a personal faith and connection to God. I take pride in the fact that I start each day in the word, reading a chapter or two as time allows while eating breakfast. I start to pray before my feet even hit the ground coming out of bed, but it’s really hard to still be part of the community of believers when all I see are these contradictions to the teachings of Christ, and if they were to know my real views and how I really live my life, then they would see the opposite contradictions in me.
I was asked last night by the guy I’m currently talking to why I don’t date a Christian if I’m a Christian. And I told him just this reason – I saw on his profile that he was Catholic and that’s good enough for me BUT Christian men usually will not hold the same views as I do on the subjects of LGBTQ rights, a woman’s right to choose over abortions etc and I can’t be in a relationship with someone like that.
The division is subtle at times but it’s most definitely there.