Part 4 – 100 days
Today is day 91! I am so proud of myself for getting to this point. I set out to fix my relationship with God, well to actually develop a relationship with God and I feel like I definitely accomplished that! I came to the realization that I have never had a relationship with God and I was just playing at it. That was a hard thing to accept. But I have taken great steps to fix it.
I wake up every day and have prayer and Bible reading while I’m having breakfast. I have broken some habitual sins that have literally held me hostage for twenty years, and I have started to improve my heart and be able to really keep myself on the path towards God and holiness. This was a major accomplishment for me. At times, I still feel completely unworthy to even consider myself on the right path, especially considering my past, but I know that I need to let those feelings of inadequacy go and move forward.
One thing that was a by-product of my 100-days was that I cut dating and romantic interactions with men out of my life. It was very important to do this as I knew that if I allowed that area to continue to be active, my mind would not be on anything spiritual and I would most definitely not be breaking any past habits. It was a solid must!
Now that I am just 9 short days away from my goal, I have some thoughts…
First of all, WOW. I am so proud of myself.
Secondly, can I keep up this relationship after the 100 days are over. It just so happened to work out that my 100-days end the day before work begins so I am thrust right back into my regular routine. That was a major concern for me because I know how easily I can drop habits that I’ve worked so hard to cement in my life. It’s much easier when my routine gets shifted.
But with moving, I am just a quick walk to work so I know that I can keep a similar routine in the morning and not have to worry about leaving at a specific time or I’d miss my bus. Which is super awesome!
So overall, this has been a great experience for me! And I am so happy that I was able to have it, and while it was a little easy to get it started in a pandemic, a few of the habits I wanted to cut from my life were thriving in the pandemic so that made it a struggle as well. But I am just so happy that I have reached this point and am excited to continue forward with it!