Write about someone you love.

No.

That was my very first response to this question. When I started this series, I was very much in love with someone. Someone who didn’t love me back. And even though I have stepped away from that, and have actually moved on nicely, those feelings just don’t vanish. Like I can honestly say I’m still in love with them, but I have moved on. It’s a weird line for me because I’ve never had such deep feelings for anyone before. And it’s a new experience for me trying to navigate the healing process. I’d like to think that I did well – a period of wallowing, then some anger, and now just acceptance that I have those feelings that he doesn’t share and I’m free to find someone who will share them. 

So this question has mocked me for 19 weeks.

And every time I go into my draft that has all the questions listed out with a link to the first post for Saturday morning ease, I was reminded that I would eventually have to write it. And every time my eyes caught the “someone you love” my mind immediately thought of no one else to write about.

Sure I could write about my parents or brother or best friend. But those were all afterthoughts and every time I went to think about what I would say, I never had any words. But I could go on for thousands of words on the other person.

But I’m not going to.

I actually had made up my mind to write about my best friend but I’m not going to do that either. I wasn’t even going to mention the other person, but when I opened my laptop to make this post, this is what happened. Way to go, T.

So, I guess what I’m trying to say is that my answer is still no.

If you wanted to check out my original post for this series, you can find it here.