I don’t know what the frick-frack is up with me lately.
I’m literally a jumble of emotions. Why? I don’t know. Well…no…I know. Some very solid truths are hitting me at the moment and I know that it’s time to accept them. I’ve known them for a while, but it’s the accepting them that is the hard part.
You know when you just know something and you’re like “naw, we good.” And just push it to the side and then you try to spend some time in blissful happiness until your brain and heart finally gives in and is like “Gurl! Pull yourself together! You can’t avoid this forever! It’s hurting you. You know it. Now be a big girl and accept it!”
I’m at that stage, and right now I’m actually on the verge of tears thinking about it. Because I don’t want to accept the reality of the situation. But I have to. It’s not fair not to. And then, of course, there are those pesky tears. Like honestly guys, I hate crying. And now it’s twice in one freaking week?! Sorry for the non-T like language happening right now, I’m not in my normal sunshine and lollipops mood. I hate letting my emotions get to me like this. Maybe that’s the benefit of accepting things when you realize them and not putting them off for four months because you don’t want to deal with reality because ya never know, the situation just might change? She says to herself in a matter of fact, I soooo totally told you, way. Gah, I hate when I get so smug with myself.
But today two good things have happened so I am going to try to steal the happiness of those two things and force my emotions to play along.
First of all my kids are back!! LET’S ALL CELEBRATE! And just like the Grinch, my heart will grow three sizes the instant I hear that little 8-year-old scream my name and then run into my arms, probably knocking me over because she’s getting just to the point of being too heavy for running/jumping into my arms. But whatever. If she doesn’t do that, I might just cry. And if she does, it will be followed by me singing “do you wanna build a snowman?! It doesn’t have to be a snowman” and then in regular voice asking if she wants to build an army of snow hippos because, DUH, they are so much better than snowmen.
The second is Baby Groot. How can anyone be upset in the world when there is Baby Groot? Click this link and head on over to my darling Hot Mess. She made an amazing post about Baby Groot and I support this message (and implore her to get a reblog button!)