I don’t know what the frick-frack is up with me lately.
I’m literally a jumble of emotions. Why? I don’t know. Well…no…I know. Some very solid truths are hitting me at the moment and I know that it’s time to accept them. I’ve known them for a while, but it’s the accepting them that is the hard part.
You know when you just know something and you’re like “naw, we good.” And just push it to the side and then you try to spend some time in blissful happiness until your brain and heart finally gives in and is like “Gurl! Pull yourself together! You can’t avoid this forever! It’s hurting you. You know it. Now be a big girl and accept it!”
I’m at that stage, and right now I’m actually on the verge of tears thinking about it. Because I don’t want to accept the reality of the situation. But I have to. It’s not fair not to. And then, of course, there are those pesky tears. Like honestly guys, I hate crying. And now it’s twice in one freaking week?! Sorry for the non-T like language happening right now, I’m not in my normal sunshine and lollipops mood. I hate letting my emotions get to me like this. Maybe that’s the benefit of accepting things when you realize them and not putting them off for four months because you don’t want to deal with reality because ya never know, the situation just might change? She says to herself in a matter of fact, I soooo totally told you, way. Gah, I hate when I get so smug with myself.
But today two good things have happened so I am going to try to steal the happiness of those two things and force my emotions to play along.
First of all my kids are back!! LET’S ALL CELEBRATE! And just like the Grinch, my heart will grow three sizes the instant I hear that little 8-year-old scream my name and then run into my arms, probably knocking me over because she’s getting just to the point of being too heavy for running/jumping into my arms. But whatever. If she doesn’t do that, I might just cry. And if she does, it will be followed by me singing “do you wanna build a snowman?! It doesn’t have to be a snowman” and then in regular voice asking if she wants to build an army of snow hippos because, DUH, they are so much better than snowmen.
The second is Baby Groot. How can anyone be upset in the world when there is Baby Groot? Click this link and head on over to my darling Hot Mess. She made an amazing post about Baby Groot and I support this message (and implore her to get a reblog button!)
literally me today
Oh no, I hope things are better for you soon xo
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Thanks Angela! They will be
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I know exactly what you’re feeling. Accepting the truth is always harder than the actual truth. But I like to think that once you accept it you can move forward. You can let go of all of the pain and the hurt and the regret and grow from it. Ah, emotions! If they were not always so complicated…
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Haha exactly!! And they say it gets better to deal with emotions when you are older – it doesn’t! Lol such a scam
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Ok so maybe I don’t love that you’re having a rough time… but I would rather read your real post about real feelings and really accepting (such as this one) then you fake it and be just lollipops. It’s ok to be bummed. It helps us know when the highs are really really high to occasionally s low.
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Yeah for def. And I’m always honest here because its one of the few places I can be 100% honest which is nice. Even to just vent some feelings. Its easier to work through then when I type them all out.
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This is just a bad time. Things will get better. It’s good you actually can come to terms though. Perhaps that’s the beginning of the light at the end of the tunnel? Thank you for adding my baby Groot post. He is such sunshine!!
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This is what I was texting you about earlier. Like seriously it sucks.
And baby groot has been the BEST part of my day lol thanks for posting about it. Now Pinterest is showing me baby groot pictures 😀
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Maybe we need to make a baby Groot board! I’m sorry you are down! Chin up!!!
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Thanks dudette! I got to see my kids which was awesome!! 2 out of 4 are sick and everyone has basically been awake for two days so lots of cranky pandas at the moment but they boosted my spirits!
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Cranky pandas! Love it! That’s an adorable phrase!
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Haha!! I have a whole bag of adorable phrases 😛 I’m basically Mary Poppins 😉😉
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OMG you totally are! And if I hit it big you are going to quit your job and nanny my sons for lots of dollars. I hate the cold so we are going to have to move to L.A. Are you ok with living in the pool house? LOL! Despite their fighting, my sons are known for being extremely polite and well-behaved!
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FedEx me a contract when you’re rolling in the greens 😉
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You’ll be the first and only nanny I call!
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YAY!! And yes the pool house will be perfect. Buy a house close to Chris Evans or Shemar Moore okies? Lol
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Who dat?
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😨😨 captian america or derek morgan from criminal minds lol
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So much relating here for me. I understand that feeling of needing to accept the truth. HUGS ❤
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Awww thanks Stephanie! I’m feeling a little better about the situation now but it still kind of sucks because it could have been pretty awesome if it didn’t suck haha
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