Or: the most pain I have ever felt in my entire life.
It is no secret around here that I have so much hatred for the hair issues surrounding my life. Sometimes, I think that I have come to terms with these issues, but other times I’m full of rage.
The last time I wrote about my body hair, not my head hair, was back in October. I’ve started waxing my shoulders which I love. Like it gives me so much more confidence!! And after a few times, the hair grows back in lighter, and softer, so it’s been a good thing for me. I’m even spacing out the appointments more and more, which is also a good thing.
However, if you read that post from October, you also know that I tried waxing my face as well. Just my jawline (it didn’t work at all because the hairs were too short and I was massively upset). Because that is the place that I hate the most. Like even more than my alopecia, I hate that I have hair along my jawline. My mom does too (I say I got all the bad traits from both my parents), and I have seen her shave her face literally my whole life. She doesn’t do as much of her face as I do – but I also kind of think that if I didn’t start, then I probably wouldn’t have had this issue when I got older. But a friend of mine noticed some fuzzies in my “sideburn” area while she was doing my makeup one night, like 99% of women have – just little fuzzies, and after that, I was like “NOPE!!” And here we are.
So the last time I went to the salon, I was telling this new girl about my concerns and she suggested that I try threading on my face instead of waxing. It would create less of a redness and it would be easier to get all the short hairs. Since my work family is out of town still, I took this weekend as a trial run for it – I could stop shaving my face for a few days and not have my 8-year-old squish my face and go “you’re growing a beard!” like she has started doing.
For those of you who don’t know: threading is a form of torture. You literally just take regular sewing thread, make a twisty thing and it rips the hair out as you tighten the twist.
In all it’s painful glory:
I made an appointment for Friday evening and went in. At first, it was all good. She started on my sideburn area on the right side of my face and it hurt a little bit for the first few times and then I couldn’t feel anything. I was all “oh, okies, I can deal with this.”
I pride myself on having a high pain tolerance. People sometimes ask what that means, so here are some examples:
- When I was 14 I broke my toe. Slammed it into a wooden thing while at a youth car wash. It kind of hurt but I brushed it off. An hour later when my dad picked me and my brother up, after getting rid of the soap bubbles from my feet, I realized my entire toe was half purple and half black. It wasn’t bothering me.
- When I was 16, I dislocated the same toe. On holidays, I was walking up the stairs in silky pj’s and my foot slipped. My toe caught on the rung of the stairway and literally was at a 90-degree angle from where it needed to be. I sat down, pushed it back in, taped it up and went on my way.
- I never get freezing when I have to have a cavity filled (my root canal was 100% different. I used all the freezing for that).
- I sat through over two-hours of tattooing, and shading, and colour blending, and pain for my hippo with no more than an occasional wince and no breaks.
So when I say that this broke me – it freaking broke me!
After about 20 minutes, she had reached down that side of my cheek and was starting on the actual jawline/under my chin. It was so freaking painful! At first, my eyes were just watering but after about 10 minutes of that pain, I literally started to cry. I don’t cry. Practically never. And here I am, laying in a salon, freaking crying.
It wasn’t like sobbing or anything, but there were tears. My voice was cracking when she was talking to me, mascara was streaking up my glasses, my lips/chin were quivering, and my body was starting to shake.
I honestly don’t know how people do this in more sensitive areas. She did say that the centre of the body is more sensitive but oh my goodness.
Anyway – she finished the area, I had a previously scheduled appointment for Friday so she’s going to check the area again. She gave me some tips to make the next time a little bit more tolerable – exfoliate the day before and try some numbing cream. So yeah…that’s definitely going to happen.
At least now I am prepared for the pain and will try to remember to not wear makeup so that I don’t have a wrecked face again.