This week, I needed a little extra Jesus.
Do you ever have those weeks? Where, you’re not really struggling with anything, but life happens and you just feel yourself being pulled into prayer more often than normal? I was having one of those weeks and I needed to be at my church this morning. I was invited to check out a friend’s church and said that I really needed to go to my church this week. She said it’s all the same God but I think she understood. And she’s right, it is all the same God (at least between us, both Christians), but I needed my church. Even though I’ve only been going there a few months, it already feels like home, and home is what I needed today. My kidlets had a piano recital this morning as well, which I missed because I just needed church today.
Like I mentioned, it’s not like I’ve been struggling with anything per say, but I’ve found myself drawing on God’s guidance more this week than previously. Maybe I’m getting to a place where I will seek more often, which is great! I really want to have him present in all aspects of life.
So I got to church this morning early. It was nice to sit and listen to the worship team practice – giving me that little bit of extra quiet time before the service started. I realised that it was also a communion Sunday. It was a blessing – I always feel better after a communion service. Especially since I can’t even remember the last one I attended before April.
The sermon was based around this idea of us wanting the blessings that God gives, but not the blesser. The pastor had a whole sermon based on scripture bits. He didn’t have one text that he stuck to but bounced all over the Bible. It was motivating and enriching. This really stuck with me because over the last few years this has been my way of thinking. I want God’s blessings in my life, but I had no time for him, the blesser. I would pray for help in my life, or his blessings over my choices but never made the time for him. I didn’t go to him in prayer unless I was asking for something, I hardly ever read my Bible, if I did I was so distracted by other thoughts I might have just read a takeout menu. In fact, I probably would have given the takeout menu more of my attention!
And I was shocked when I found myself faltering in my Christian path. I found myself slipping into habits that I wanted to get rid of. I’d allow myself to be consumed by them for a while, then pray for the strength to drop them. Asking for forgiveness again for the thing I had struggled with maybe 2 months earlier. It was a vicious cycle.
My pastor today ended with Psalm 85. He says in his Bible, he has labelled it “Just one more time” and it fits. It fits the Psalm, and it fits my life. Take a read:
For the director of music. Of the Sons of Korah. A psalm.
1 You, Lord, showed favor to your land;
you restored the fortunes of Jacob.
2 You forgave the iniquity of your people
and covered all their sins.
3 You set aside all your wrath
and turned from your fierce anger.
4 Restore us again, God our Savior,
and put away your displeasure toward us.
5 Will you be angry with us forever?
Will you prolong your anger through all generations?
6 Will you not revive us again,
that your people may rejoice in you?
7 Show us your unfailing love, Lord,
and grant us your salvation.
8 I will listen to what God the Lord says;
he promises peace to his people, his faithful servants—
but let them not turn to folly.
9 Surely his salvation is near those who fear him,
that his glory may dwell in our land.
10 Love and faithfulness meet together;
righteousness and peace kiss each other.
11 Faithfulness springs forth from the earth,
and righteousness looks down from heaven.
12 The Lord will indeed give what is good,
and our land will yield its harvest.
13 Righteousness goes before him
and prepares the way for his steps.
- provided via biblegateway.com NIV version
He focused mostly on the first four verses. How they applied to the Israelites as well as us today. How God has shown favour to us. He has forgiven us and placed anger aside. How many times has he done that for me? Too many for me to count. Then in verse 4, “restore us again” – the authors were in the same place as me. Asking, again, to be restored and forgiven.