Have you ever had anyone tell you that you were too confident in who you are?
This happens to me all the time – not so much in malicious ways, but it’s there and ya know what? I don’t understand it.
When I was younger, I was shy and reserved and stayed away from the spotlight. If someone gave me a compliment, I would shyly accept it, turn bright red, kind of lower my head and twist my hands together. Ya’ll know the way it goes.
But as I’m getting older, most of that is going away. Sure I will still blush because I can’t control that, and some days I think that I don’t look like anything super special, but I totally accept the compliments now.
Mostly, because I have worked on myself enough to love who I am. Sure I would change some things if I could (gah like my hair let me tell you!) but I really do love the person I have grown into being.
I think the realisation came to me when I was in my early 20’s. I had just broken up with the hottest guy I had ever dated. He made me feel so insecure because I was constantly all “why is he with me?” but then he actually turned out to be the biggest jerk. Looks fade, the outside fades, and what’s left is inside. So I’ve taken a lot of time and energy cultivating that person on the inside, and she rocks my socks most days.
This past week, I’ve had a major ego boost though for the outside of me. Through daily texts, conversations, and selfie sharing, I had an uplift of spirit. My old manager would probably tell you I didn’t need it, and ya know I probably didn’t, but it’s still nice to be reminded that some people see you as beautiful.
I didn’t even share a lot of the selfies on social media, basically my Instagram because I’m avoiding Facebook a lot these days, but even just looking at the pictures myself boosted my mood. I didn’t need to send them to anyone to look at them and see how great I looked. I used to hate how I looked in pictures and now, even though the greatness of last week is over, I still took a picture of what I’m wearing today. ps: I look super adorbs in a dark mustard yellow
If you’re ever feeling a little low, decide on a few days and just take a picture of what you’re wearing. Don’t cheat! It’s so much fun! I didn’t even put any filters on my pictures and I still loved them. Even one with no makeup, not even mascara, white eyelashes and all! Loved it!