I must be a sucker for punishment…
Have you ever had a feeling like you JUST. HAD. TO. DO. SOMETHING.
Like really? An idea pops into your head and it sticks there burning away at you until you finally give in a few days later, exhausted from trying to keep it at bay?
Well, that’s what happened to me this week. Somehow, this idea that I had to join online dating got into my head. It’s been there all fudge muffin week (ps: I have started using fudge muffin a lot now…now sure why…another thing that has just invaded my brain). So, since yesterday was Friday, and my day off, I set up a profile. I did it. And I was all excited about it and now I’m kind of a ball of nerves.
It’s so exciting putting yourself out there, but also terrifying. I’ve done online dating before, but I have never actually met anyone in person. The last time was years ago when I was living with my parents in Huron County. But back then I didn’t put up any pictures. So I would connect with a guy, we’d get to the place where we were thinking of meeting up and I’d send a picture and poof – he was a ghost (ironically where I learned the term ghosting).
But this time is different. I’ve put up about 5 different pictures of myself, and I’ve used a different site. This one has you answer questions and rate how important they are to your life and then matches you with other people. It’s free for the most part which is what I like. Another friend joined two of those paying sites a few years ago because she thinks that if the guy is serious enough they will pay for a membership and thus so should she.
So here I am – delving into this world of online dating again. It’s been almost 24 hours and my profile has had over 50 views (for my profile picture I used my birthday selfie that all you Giggling Followers saw a few weeks ago, cos, let’s face it, I looked adorable in it haha!). But I feel like this is my first time going into online dating.
I found this one guy who was matched pretty high with me, I liked his profile and then a few hours later had to go back and message him. Couldn’t get him off my mind. In that time, our match percentage only grew since I answered some more questions. But I had no idea what to say! NONE. So my message was super lame and gah I so regret it! He viewed my profile last night and no reply.
Then there was another guy who viewed my profile at least 5 times. When you are on the site, it shows you pop-ups every time someone views your profile, so that’s how I know. I went to university with him, so right off the bat it was like “eeehhhhh” and then I read his profile, and we are matched at 97% but there was just no interest on my part. But what do you do with that? Ignore him? I couldn’t. I knew how hard it was to send a message since I spent almost the whole day fretting over the message I sent. So I replied and tried to be nice. But whatever I wrote sounded mean. Anyways, he took it well. I think it just boiled down to the fact that I don’t find him even the tiniest bit cute. Which is sad I know – but there has to be some sort of attraction right? Otherwise, we would have been really well suited I think.
I do ignore the messages which are basically no more than Joey from Friends saying “how you doin’?” and their profiles have no information on them.
But then we get to the difficult part – I find that my hair situations are my downfall. I can be cute and bubbly and caring and whatever, but when do I bring that bombshell up?
I was talking to BFF-R about it and she said that it wouldn’t matter to the right man. She’s the best at giving advice ya’ll. She always makes me calm down and feel better. I was going to keep her as the only one who knew but I can’t keep this from you. So you and her, and that’s it!
So….yeah….now I’m off to work and I’ll just let this sit here all day….