It’s usually a question that is asked in the heat of an argument, if you are finding someone extra annoying at that particular moment, or just having a giggle-fest with your friends. It’s usually meant as what is wrong with a person’s mental health (like o-m-g, you like that shirt?! what is wrong with you?!”), but today, let’s stick to things not in my brain….it’s a deep and dark place where no one is advised to go under any circumstances. I’ll get a doctor’s note if you really need one 😉
So what’s wrong with me? Aside from my warped sense of humor, I’m going to stick with just 2 things. I hope they are hidden well from the general public, but those around me know of at least 1, and if you are my parents or brother then you know both.
The first thing that is wrong with me: I have alopecia. For those lucky people who have no idea what alopecia is, it’s a hair condition. There are a few types, but in all cases it means that your hair falls out and it doesn’t grow back = baldness! I was watching some clips on youtube last night of “The Voice UK” and this one woman has alopecia and she lost all her hair all over her body at the age of 21 ( https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YLibAF1IsZM ). A friend of mine, her niece lost all her hair at the age of 3, but then eventually grew it all back.
I don’t have either of those types of alopecia. I have what is called “female localized alopecia”. In normal people words it means that my hair loss is contained to a specific location on my body. So mine is localized on the top of my head. If I put down my hair, you can see the skin on the top of my head, and it’s starting to get to a point where having it up won’t cover the baldness. It’s hereditary of course, my dad and brother both have male pattern baldness which is normal in men and that gene has been passed on to me…YAY….
I went to a dermatologist last year after my doctor finally agreed he couldn’t pin-point the cause of my hair loss. The dermatologist took a 15 second look at the back of my head and knew exactly what it was. So I’ve come to terms with it and have decided that I won’t be letting it affect my fabulousness! In the spring, I went to see a specialist and got a wig made. It was very expensive but DAUM I look pretty good with it on. It’s a nice dark reddish colour, matched perfectly to the hair clipping he took when he was making the wig. It was from the bottom on my head so its darker than I was expecting, and my mom says I look like my aunt when I have it on, but I love it! I feel empowered and beautiful when I wear it! I no longer feel people starring at my hair at the front of my head trying to decide if they can really see my skin or if its just how I have my hair styled. My hair is still pretty long, down to at least my shoulders. So at home I can pull it up and just be me, but when I go out, I make two cute little pigtail braids, throw the wig on, stuff the hair up and strut out the door! FLAWLESS *triple finger snap in a zigzag motion*
So that’s the first. I’m losing my hair and will probable have a bald dome in a few years. The second, I guess is a little ironic. When I was about 20, I was told by my doctor that I have policystic ovaries. At the time, I didn’t know what that meant, my doctor was a certifiable QUACK so I kind of just ignored it. I googled it and it said something about being over weight was one of the causes so I just chalked it up to her being a jerk and telling me to lose 50lbs every time I saw her (apparently I was going to get diabetes if I didn’t….8 years later still haven’t).
Then I came across the bearded lady who has been popping up in all the social media sites lately. Check her out on buzzfeed: http://www.buzzfeed.com/juliegerstein/this-bearded-bride-will-change-the-way-you-think-about-beaut#.gcWaXMKJKJ She is so beautiful! Well, we have the same condition! Imagine that! My quack doctor was right! I was as shocked as anyone to actually believe it. So, much like Harnaam Kaur, I too have to shave my face every day, and have access body hair that is slightly annoying as a female. I’m not sure I am brave enough to just let it all go like she is. It’s super annoying to have to deal with the stubble every day (How do you do it men? Seriously I need to know) but it’s become part of who I am.
I love how Harnaam says near the end of that buzzfeed article, “we are all imperfectly perfect”. It’s how I see myself, and if any one asks I’m going to tell them I’m fabulous! Let’s just face the fact that I am and we’ll get along just fine 😉